Here we go again... Part 2.

    So here I am again. Trying this thing where I try to live healthier. We have our ups and downs and some have it more than others. I can't explain why, but the only thing we can really do is to get up off our butts and just have another go.

     I just recently came back from a trip to Costa Rica. I had a great time with my friends. I ate well, zip-lined, did some white water rafting and rode an ATV up to the mountains. As boys will be boys, a friend took a very unflattering picture of me while I took a nap in the car. When I discovered this picture later, I could not believe how much I let myself go. You can say it was a real eye opener and my jaw just about dropped to the floor. It's by far the most embarrassing picture I have ever seen of myself. It haunts me and it will always.

     Now that I am back home, it feels good. I made a vow on the flight back to the US that I will make a better effort to start this blog back up and continue my progress. Not only will I try to eat healthier and exercise more, but I will be changing my daily habits that have continued to suck my life out dry. I have always had a dirty and messy room/ car, but with my overall life and environment, I intend to improve. I always thought that if I can improve the way I am and the environment I surround myself in, i.e. my home, room and car, that I would have less stress and I can have more control of my life. I think I have struggled with eating, exercising and maintaining a clean, less materialistic life. The goal is to improve day by day and I hope I can finally stop making excuses.

Wish me luck.. again.. *sigh*

The motivation is here again...

June 2, 2011....

A new day and new opportunities arise. I can't really explain to you how many times I have been in this situation, but the truth of the matter is that I am inconsistent. Getting to a healthy state of mind is a struggle. It's easy to say you can do it and think of all the ways you want to get there. Putting the time and heart into it is extremely difficult.

I got sidelined with a knee injury, back injury and shoulder injury. BOOM. DONE. WTF NOW? Let's eat. Then eat again. And again. Eat some more until my sorrow goes away.

I had my body fat test recently just to see where I'm at. To my luck I have 30% body fat. Yes, I said luck. Sarcastically. Now as I type here on this MacBook Pro, mixed emotions come into my mind on how I want to live my life. I can still live this tiring life of complacency and accept the food that I love to eat. But what good would that do? I live a good life. I have a good job that pays well, or pays my bills well haha. I have a beautiful girlfriend who loves me and I have a roof over my head. But until I can change my unhealthy side of my life, I will never be the man I thought I can be. Not for me, my girlfriend whom I love and my friends and family who care about me.

I don't know. I'm motivated again, but I hate failing again at this. I know I'm not obese, but this is not a good road I am taking. Baby steps.